One year

It has been just over a year since I gave birth to our babies. I can not believe it has been that long. Dakota is the love of my life and the sunshine in my day. My heart still feels so heavy with the ache to hold my baby Rain. I will never forget the baby I only got to hold in my heart and in my body. I love you my little Rain. I do not know how to begin to heal the pain I feel, somedays I think if it wasn't for our little guy I would not want to wake up and deal with the pain again, not another day.

They say the loss of a child will either make you or break you as a couple, in many ways it has broken us. I am not really here in my head alot.
I started this at the one year loss of our baby girl or their birthday. Funny I still feel the pain as much now as I did then. I am so grateful to have our little Dakota.
I heard a song called who you'd be today and it describes the pain I feel for the loss of Rain. Does the pain ever ease? Somehow I manage to push the pain aside and pretend all is right in the world everyday for Dakota and My family when my heart aches to hold my little baby girl. I love you Rain.